an empty mind - exam amnesia

today i suddenly felt like i was sanjay ramaswamy...well no ring a ring o' roses with asin in europe, but saw some engineering theory in practice :
an acausal memoryless system whose present output doesnot depend on past inputs. period.

do they have a word for the opposite of deja vu? here my mind was saying 'hai nice to meet u'. what a bliss...

with me,

speed of study = 1 / time left.

its always inversely proportional..and by a steep load line . the notebook i bought at semester start but wrote just a few pages over 3 months, got over in an hour yesterday. from evening 7 to morning 7 my mind sucked in all that i should have learn the entire time. or so i thought....

im usually quite handy in the 11th hour show me what u can do thing, but today my transistor choked probably load chipping off driving point.

but where does all this concentration over long hours, ploughing along chasing the impossible go when u had the time? make no mistake this is harder work.

do i wait just for the thrill? its one of those moments in your life you very badly want to kick yourself in the ass, but just can't reach the damn thing. you really can't...i have been trying since evening...

another new day day, a new exam..and some programming = some logic. in fact perfect karma...what u sow u reap. in programming parlance: garbage in garbage out! no chasing around and making sense of currents who themselves have no idea what are they up to...amen to all that.

"the most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. it is the source of all true and science" - albert einsten ....and so begins the preface of the book for tomorrow's exam. beautiful. but....i'm in preface. not everything in life changes afterall.